Happy Hump-Day Hunnies!
How is this week treating you so far?
This past Saturday was hair day for me. (Who doesn't love hair day!?) Do not worry, this isn't a post all about my hair, I promise.
For years, I *HAD* to have my hair as blonde as I could possibly have it. This was a non-negotiable. I had convinced myself that it looked "better" this way because it hid my many, many gray hairs.
Every six weeks like clock work, I'd go into my salon. My appointment was always the 1st one of the day- 9:00 am. I'd be there until 1:30 or 2:00 pm as my stylist went through and added enough bleach filled foils to make me a bonified lightening rod.
The thought of doing anything else, was simply NOT okay. This is how it "HAD" to be. Like with many other of my beliefs over time, this thought was rigid.
Looking back, I now realize that there were so many things in my life, pertaining to my appearance that I thought that I had no control over. Subconsciously, I thought "I cant do anything about this flabby tummy or pudgy arms, but I can control this hair."
Over the last 4.5 months though, I had a breakthrough though. I learned that I was worth fighting for. I was worthy of a clean, healthy diet. I was valuable enough to spend an hour a day, 5 days a week working my body with a fitness routine. Well, wouldn't you know... turns out that I DID have control over that tummy, those arms and everything else. Who would of thought that the way things were wasn't how that had to be indefinitely.
It took a lot of work and even more tears to come to the realization that I am in control of each and every aspect of my life. I'm not a victim to anyone or any circumstance, unless I so choose to be. This is true for each and everyone of us.
After I finally got to this much healthier space, I stopped "sweating the small stuff". I became less afraid to try the new and different. So, while the change of the hair might seem like no big deal, people change their hair all the time...for me this change is symbolic of something so much bigger.
I tell you this because I want you to know that this stuff is worth fighting for. YOU are worth fighting for and you have the ability to change any aspect of your life at anytime. You posses so much more power than you likely know. If I can do it, so can you. You are worth it.
XO,
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